Saturday, December 16, 2006

Welcome to the Real World

I’ve heard a lot about the darker side of humanity, and I was told that I will get to eyewitness by myself after I throw myself into the workaholic world. Well, I guess I was well-prepared, and yet, oops, no no no….. What I seen still made me astonished completely.

Although I was studying engineering course, but yet, I ah…. Accidentally stumble into marketing position, and I thought my job is just…. You know, doing marketing, try to get our product and services penetrate into the market, promote our brand to public, organize conference & exhibition etc etc. But then, from the customer conference that had been held recently, I found out that, oops, it seems that I need to arm myself with more skills to handle my job perfectly. You need to talk cock and bullshitting with customers, you need to laugh and giggle no matter how bad the joke is cracked by others, you need to “cheers cheers cheers” even though you do not know what to cheer for, you need to dirty-dance with your so-called important customer, and ya, you better fond of ciggies and alcohol.


“Hey, Xing Zhi, throw away your orange juice, and come, bottom out your whisky.”


“Erm, sorry, I erm…. I’m allergic to alcohol.”


“What? Allergic to alcohol? C’mon, you don’t smoke, you don’t drink, what are you going to do with your long lifespan?”


“Erm…… in that case, sorry I guess I’m drunk, ya, drank a lot just now, wow, so dizzy now, argh.”


“Haha, cool, you’re drunk, sooner or later you’ll get used to it, once you try more, you will LOVE this kind of life."


Thanks to my….. so-called troubled adolescence where clubbing, ciggies and alcohol are no longer the strange names for me, sorry guys, I know exactly how alcoholic drinks and ciggies taste like, and erm, I know how they’re going to harm our health, and I guess there are some other things which are meaningful to my life, but of course I won’t read a bible in the midst of the beach party, hahaha.


Please, please, I just want to be the person behind the scene, to deliver the project successfully. I neither want to steal the limelight, nor to be an attention-seeker, erm, shall I need an invisible suit to wear on? Haha.


Sunday, November 19, 2006

迎接寂寞,享受孤独

最近,在一本书里读到,会享受孤独的人往往是幸福的。

人生其实是一个孤独的旅程,孤身一人来到人间,孑然一身地离开这个世界,如果一个人能够享受孤独,就能在寂寥阑珊的时刻,细细品味随心所欲的自由。独处的时候,你会更加清晰地看到自己的内心世界。

熟悉我的朋友都知道,我极度害怕孤独,非常抗拒一个人独处的时候,总觉得不自在,不知该怎么打发时间,非要找个人陪我不可。即使吃饭也不喜欢一个人,如果真的没人陪,那就打包啦,决不一个人坐在餐厅里吃呢,傻透了。要是打包回家一个人吃呢,也会觉得酸溜溜的,难过死了。

随着年龄的增长(老了,哈),我开始重拾年幼时的爱好 – 看书。开始享受一个人看看书、听听歌、喝喝饮料、天南地北的想一回,再写点东西,记录自己心灵故事的时光。
远离了喧哗的人群,一个人静静的聆听大自然的声音,或者赤裸裸的面对自己的心灵,没有杂念,没有忧伤,没有烦絮,有的是一份自然。

人家说,以书润心,这句话一点都没错,感谢书让我早日接受生命中的孤独,善用并享受它,使我在静寂之中,品尝一番生活的味道。

A spiritual tour

An article  i wrote  2 months ago......

小时候,我是个大坏蛋,既叛逆又自负,总觉得自己好聪明,觉得身边的女生好逊,爱哭之余运动又差,不像我那么酷,能和男生们较量,呵!


中学时期,我在姐妹淘里扮演着向日葵的角色,开心、乐观、好动、坚强是我的形象,加上我超爱洋鬼子,朋友们都说,这小鬼迟早找个洋鬼子运动员嫁了,然后一起参加什么越野运动赛啦,过着自由刺激的生活。


好啦,等到真的长大啦,真的找到一个爱刺激、爱运动的他,真的有机会游山玩水啦,却看到了我最真实的一面胆小懦弱的一面。去热浪岛潜水,不要啦,万一淹死怎么办?船艇怎么飞得那么快?海浪怎么那么大,万一船子被打翻了怎么办?你怎么坐在船艇的前方,很危险啊?宠爱我的他(不是洋鬼子@_@)总爱唤我为鼬鼠Hamster),一只好吃懒做、蹦蹦跳跳、贪新鲜且好玩的Hamster,可是他也知道这只Hamster极之胆小,想放手让我学习独立,又害怕我受伤,更怕我大发脾气。可他越是保护我,我越是依赖他,总觉得无所谓啦,反正有他在就好了啊。


唉,现在做工啦,我的工作可是要到处飞呀,有时候还得一个人飞呐,怎么办啊?在我飞去印尼雅加达Jakarta)之前,我每一晚都在担心着,飞机爆炸怎么办啊?飞机堕海怎么办?酒店闹鬼怎么办?可是我不能带着他去啊,怎么办?他告诉我说,你已经很幸运啦,不是每一个人都能够到处走啊,趁年轻就多看看外面的世界,扩大你的视野。真的吗?是啊,人生无常,你该把握时间及机会,活在当下,不要害怕。你不是常羡慕别人有精彩的生活吗?为什么还要却步?


我就这样,带着行李、小枕头、一只小猪,以及他的话到了雅加达。酒店、办公室、德士。。。都能为我的失眠、害怕以及思思乡病作证。可是慢慢地,我开始举起我的相机,贪婪地拍下我在印尼看到的每一样东西。马路上行驶的车子、四处兜客的小摩哆司机、美味的印尼道地菜肴、造型特别的屋子、可爱的小车车、在马路上拉着小提琴向人要钱的年轻人,这是一个充满着艺术气息的雅加达,也是一个贫富悬殊的城市,造型豪华的购物广场外那铁篱笆隔着为钱打拼的本土印尼人,这是印尼人主要的犯罪原因吗?




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Tangkuban Parahu火山之旅让我庆幸自己有死撑着出差的勇气,围绕在已爆发的死火山那蔓延的山脉,是那么的宏观。火山旁的市集像一条小蛇,沿着山路蜿蜒地往上爬,四处向游客兜售纪念品的小贩多不胜数,不太会拒绝的我常因同情心作祟而成了小贩们最爱的顾客(傻瓜)。可是印尼的纪念品好精美哦,我想,艺术就是他们精神富足的寄托吧。




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印尼这一趟,让我看了好多,也想了很多,唉,不能再想啦,再想,我的思想就太灰啦。勇敢点,好吗?



Saturday, October 21, 2006

Crash

Images_2 I know it's kinda late to talk about this movie, but then, i just watched it yesterday and hey... it is indeed a good movie, well, it explored the darker side of humanity, talked about racial discrimination etc etc....

Well, not much to elaborate here, running out of time, heh... but ya, watch it when you got time, haha... cheers~~

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Sunday, October 15, 2006

Olivia - Girl Meets Bossanova

ImagesOlivia, a 19-year-old Singaporean native, who left her home country for Tokyo, and she worked for last year-and-a-half to complete her first debut album Girl Meets Bossanova.

I was first attracted by her angelic voice in the last month, but yet, not willing to spend the money because i was quite darn poor on that time, but in the end, couldn't help to buy her album - Girl Meets Bossanova yesterday, when i was in the Victoria Music Station at Amcorp Mall.

My favourite songs would be the Flying Me to the Moon, Meditation, and of course, Girl from Ipanema....

For those who love Bossanova, here I recommend you, Oliva Ong.

Thursday, October 5, 2006

The Devil Wears Prada

Images_1 Well, what can I say about you, Meryl Streep, you are such a.... briliant actress/performer... it's just wow!!

Haha, ya, I've been watching "The Devil Wears Prada" and erm, for those who luv fashion, pretty gals, pretty clothes, models.... you will luv dis movie, ya i'm pretty sure about dis.

Anne Hattaway is pretty as usual... fair skin wif lotsa pretty clothes, shoes (from our respectable Jimmy Choo)... Meryl Streep is like.... transformed into another person, elegant but wicked... the hair, the clothes, she way she talks, wow, that's awesome!!

Ya, i'm quite keen on it, right? Heh... ya, I luv great movie, that's why, heh.

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Wednesday, February 22, 2006

The Cardigans - Communication

Da853eac4fc55faca5a7f58cabaa7c2dc8325a39_1For twenty seven years I’ve been trying
To believe and confide in
Different people I found...

Some of them got closer than others,
And some wouldn’t even bother,
And then you came around.

I didn’t really know what to call you,
You didn’t know me at all,
But I was happy to explain.

I never really knew how I’d move you,
So I tried to intrude through
The little holes in your veins.

And I saw you.
But that’s not an invitation,
That’s all I get,
If this is communication,
I disconnect...
I’ve seen you, I know you,
But I don’t know how to connect,
So I disconnect...

You always seem to know where to find me,
And I’m still here behind you,
In the corner of your eye.

I never really learnt how to love you,
But I know that I love you,
Through the hole in the sky,

Where I see you
And that’s not an invitation,
That’s all I get.
If this is communication,
I disconnect...
I’ve seen you, I know you,
But I don’t know how to connect,
So I disconnect...

Well, this is an invitation,
It’s not a threat,
If you want communication,
That’s what you get.
I’m talking and talking,
But I don’t know how to connect.

And I hold... a record for being patient
With your kind of hesitation.
I need you, you want me,
But I don’t know how to connect,
So I disconnect,

I disconnect...