暹内的小天使

暹内(Siem Reap)，以拥有
“The New Seven Wonders of the World” 之一的吴哥窟
(Angkor Wat) 而闻名，这个地方的经济完全依赖旅游业，每一天都有成千上万的游客对吴哥窟闻名而来，所以大大小小的酒店、旅馆、餐馆等等都充斥着这一个不算大的地方，美金更成为了比柬币更为通用的货币。

吴哥窟和吴哥通王城(Angkor Thom) 里所有建筑物的历史价值可是无可置疑的，举凡龙蟠可水池(Neak Pean)，圣剑寺(Preah Khan)，巴公寺(Bakong)，还有著名的女皇宫
(Banteay Srei)等，各式各样的雕塑都让人目不暇给，塔布茏寺
(Ta Prohm) 里翻墙蔓延的树根更是让人看的目瞪口呆，大名鼎鼎的吴哥窟当然也是游客的必到之处，它那70度倾斜而且狭窄的梯级让一些畏高的游客可望不可及，就连我爬到一半往下看时也捏了一把冷汗，还犹豫着应不应该半途折回，但想一想这么难得来到了这儿，不爬完还可真笨蛋，往上看还有些年老的长辈在努力地爬呢，好不容易硬着头皮用手脚并用地爬了上去，双脚都在微微发抖，羞死人了！再来还有吴哥窟著名的莲花池倒影，以及天还没亮就带着惺忪的睡眼以及颤抖的身躯去等待的日出。。。这一切一切，想必是每一个游客必做的功课。

如果你问我，什么东西是令我最难忘的，我会说，是暹内的小孩，是那些白天赤着脚，穿这肮脏的校服，跑几公里的沙路到破破烂烂的学校去上课，然后放学后换上一样肮脏破烂的衣服，在每一个名胜地里向游客兜售名信卡、纪念品的小孩。
“You want to buy T-shirt?” “You buy from me?” “I give you discount.” 暹内的小孩都长得很可爱，乌溜溜的眼睛，蜜糖般的肤色，略带羞涩的笑容，我给他们带了糖果、巧克力，以及文具等等，还有点后悔没带旧衣裳。大部分的小孩都很有礼貌，他们会用双手来接你给的东西，然后双手合十的说声：“Oh
Khun.” 意思是谢谢，然后开开心心的吃糖果，还会把糖果纸丢进垃圾桶，比大部分的马来西亚公民（包括成年人）还要懂事，有些则会收着糖果，不舍得吃，另一些还会说:
“I don’t want candy, can you give me pen? I need to in school.” 心酸吧？

Peeap 是一个很乖巧的女孩，我永远都忘不了她跑向我，递了一张她亲手画上花朵，写上祝福及感激字句的小卡片，并对我说:
“I give you flower, I give you luck, I won’t forget your smile, please do not
forget me too.” 这一幕。还有一位穿这黄外套红裙子，看起来只有三四岁的可爱小女孩，她用童稚的声音说:
“Post card, one dollar.” 非常可爱。。。看着她用布满泥沙的小手开开心心地把五颜六色的水果布丁塞进小嘴里。。。忍不住要亲抚她的小脸。一群孤儿在孤儿院老师的带领下向游客募捐，在递给老师一袋文具以及给了每一个孤儿一些零食后，他们都用感激的眼神不住对你说谢谢，我还记得孤儿纯朴、天真的眼神，当时除了对他们微笑，我还真的不知该说些什么。

我希望上帝还没忘记这一个地方，这里的小孩喜欢说:
“Good luck.”，我衷心地祝福他们，good
luck。

Blood Diamond

If you think you look so darn elegant and glamorous with diamond necklace or ring or any accessories, watch Blood Diamond and think again;

If you like to show off your how many carat of diamond ring to your colleague or pals, yes, watch Blood Diamond;

If you think one's status or so-called beauty is reflected by the diamond or any branded stuff you're wearing, I tell you what, money isn't make you looks prettier while knowledge and kind heart are the things you should have;

If you think Africa is so far away and none of your bloody business, go read any book related to starving African or tribal war which happened so frequent in Africa;

If you think I'm just another stupid fella who is wasting my time because I cannot change the world, well ya, I know I that I'm just nobody and I ain't going to rule this world, I just do what I can do;

If you're interested to know more about African poverty and wish to offer some helps, log on to any website of World Relief Emergency, there are many ways to help them;

If you know what can we do to help them more, please share with me because I'm still a shallow fella and I need someone to guide me;

If you think Africa is too far away to help, yes, we can start from here, do donate your old clothes and old stuff to orphanage and there are some people to collect and distribute in PJ SS2 every 3rd Sunday; Buy tissue or biscuit from those disabled instead of buying Toto every week, and remember to put the money nicely into the money box with smile on your face, your smile would brighten up their second of life;

If you think I'm too much, so sorry about it, and this is me, an odd ball, and don't worry, we still can befriend, haha...

The Tibetan Book of Living and Dying (西藏生死书)

I’m a person full with questions in my brain since I was a
child. I woke my father up in the middle night just to ask him where would I be
after I died, I seek for the answer why did god create us while only allow few years
lifespan for us to stay on earth, I wondered why there are so many religions in
this world and does it means that there are different heaven and hell for each
religion, I questioned god why there are so many unfair phenomenon in people’s
life where some people live in poverty, struggling with war, famine with their
body bared, while some other might enjoy their luxury life in the other corner
of the world, spending plenty of money just to get one fashionable jacket with
animal fur on their shoulder.

Plenty of issues brought me to learn about Buddhism, and
certainly there is a fate for me to read this – The Tibetan Book of Living and
Dying. One good thing about this book is that, you don’t have to be a Buddhist
to read it; it’s for all of us, regardless of religion.

It talks a lot about living and dying, of course, even
elaborate the details of dying process, and teach us how we should face the
death. BUT, the most valuable knowledge that I’ve learned from it is not about
death, but it’s about the proper way of living.

I believe that death is not the final destination of life;
hence, we shouldn’t ruin the world harshly just to get the natural resource for
our own sake, knowing that it will cause irremediable consequences to the
earth. Knowing more about the Circle of Incarnation and Sangsara, it’s
explicitly shown that we should always let go some silly and unnecessary
thoughts which are the root causes for all sorrows. Knowing more about Karma,
you will know that everyone must responsible for every single thing you’ve
done.

It’s always hard for us to forsake our long-time-existing
habit, even though we know that they are silly. But it’s always good for us to remind
ourselves to live with a peaceful soul everyday, and not to be stubborn,
selfish, and greedy. May this world full with love and peacefulness.

伤城 (The Confession of Pain)

在还未看这套宣传来势汹汹的电影前，就已经听到一些朋友的观后感，以及在报纸上看到不少的影评，朋友说：“还好啦，可能本来就期望不高。”另一些则说：“当然好看啦，我的金成武多帅，他啊，。。。。”影评则好坏参半，大部分都说这部电影表现中规中矩，并把失望归咎于过度的宣传等等。

在看电影这一方面，我是一个挺。。。固执的人，我只相信自己看的，因为我总相信每一个人的品味不同。我不常看港产片，只有少有的演员可以让我舍得花钱到戏院里去，刘青云、吴镇宇、黎耀祥（是的，就是他）、巩俐、张曼玉，甚至是林家栋，当然，还有少不了的梁朝伟。所以，我还是掏了十零吉，狠下心地到戏院去观赏。

金成武，相信没有人会说他不帅吧，当然我也觉得他帅透了，可也许是他那半咸不淡的广东话，总让我难以投入在他的表演中，但更有可能的是，他遇到了一个非常强的对手
- 梁朝伟。他精湛的表演牵动了整套戏的脉搏，他深沉的眼神告诉了你何谓用眼睛来演戏，他入木三分的演技证明了他多届影帝的殊荣。总觉得没有多少个人可以像他这样，把这一个带着复仇包袱的复杂人物演的这么入神，尤其喜欢看他在秘密几乎要被揭穿时，冷静地戴上眼镜，从容的带着冷笑去应付，但就让我敬佩的一幕，莫过于接近片末时，看着心爱的女人被自己伤害到躺在床上奄奄一息，并被金成武质问时，他说道：“她也是我的家人。”语末，一滴眼泪悄然滑落，没有用太多激动的表情就能完全展现出迟来的懊悔、心痛以及顿悟，完全符合片中人物深沉且不可捉摸的性格。

无可否认，此片始终带有浓厚的典型港片影子，尤其是结局，总觉得如果在适当的时候就结尾，会比较完美，剧情的铺排也显得小心翼翼，少了些让人意外的情节。但我还是满意的，因为梁朝伟，还有，因为完美的配乐。

Welcome to the Real World

I’ve heard a lot about the darker side of humanity, and I was told that I will get to eyewitness by myself after I throw myself into the workaholic world. Well, I guess I was well-prepared, and yet, oops, no no no….. What I seen still made me astonished completely.

Although I was studying engineering course, but yet, I ah…. Accidentally stumble into marketing position, and I thought my job is just…. You know, doing marketing, try to get our product and services penetrate into the market, promote our brand to public, organize conference & exhibition etc etc. But then, from the customer conference that had been held recently, I found out that, oops, it seems that I need to arm myself with more skills to handle my job perfectly. You need to talk cock and bullshitting with customers, you need to laugh and giggle no matter how bad the joke is cracked by others, you need to “cheers cheers cheers” even though you do not know what to cheer for, you need to dirty-dance with your so-called important customer, and ya, you better fond of ciggies and alcohol.

“Hey, Xing Zhi, throw away your orange juice, and come, bottom out your whisky.”

“Erm, sorry, I erm…. I’m allergic to alcohol.”

“What? Allergic to alcohol? C’mon, you don’t smoke, you don’t drink, what are you going to do with your long lifespan?”

“Erm…… in that case, sorry I guess I’m drunk, ya, drank a lot just now, wow, so dizzy now, argh.”

“Haha, cool, you’re drunk, sooner or later you’ll get used to it, once you try more, you will LOVE this kind of life."

Thanks to my….. so-called troubled adolescence where clubbing, ciggies and alcohol are no longer the strange names for me, sorry guys, I know exactly how alcoholic drinks and ciggies taste like, and erm, I know how they’re going to harm our health, and I guess there are some other things which are meaningful to my life, but of course I won’t read a bible in the midst of the beach party, hahaha.

Please, please, I just want to be the person behind the scene, to deliver the project successfully. I neither want to steal the limelight, nor to be an attention-seeker, erm, shall I need an invisible suit to wear on? Haha.